hmph. tonight, that’s kind of how I feel about the thought of moving. again.
I’d barely unpacked and started to get settled (after living a month off & on in a hotel) before I found out I wouldn’t be staying in Ohio as planned. I’d had 28 days in my apartment. with 4 being a long holiday weekend at home, 5 being at a Farm Show, and 3 being in Florida.
the rest was working. even with all of that, I’d been making Ohio my home. my coworkers were more than my team, they were my friends. my customers were close to becoming my family away from home.
and then I have to say goodbye.
I spent a lot of time back home in the last month trying to figure out came next. Figuring out what it was that I truly wanted. Where I wanted to be.
And I’m still not sure what’s going to happen, but I’ve never been more sure of my faith during the last month.
Although this next chapter didn’t start by choice, and certainly wasn’t expected, I know in my heart that it is my chance. My chance to stop chasing the dreams that I thought everyone else wanted for me. My chance to figure out what it is that I want out of life right now. To grow, and stretch, and dream those freakin’ BIG, impossible dreams that terrify us so much.
I know that things happen for a reason, as absolutely cliche as it sounds. Everything that’s happened in the last 6 weeks didn’t happen to me. You see, I’m choosing to believe that the things that happen in this life, the good AND the bad, they don’t happen to us.
They happen for us.
All of this is happening because I wasn’t on the right path for my life. I wasn’t living authentically. I wasn’t following the steps that had been laid for me. I wasn’t fulfilled. I surely wasn’t utilizing the gifts that I’ve been given to the fullest.
but I’m working on it. and I hope you’ll stay tuned as I try to figure it out.